departure

by Diodes

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departure is a journey through many emotions I experienced during a certain time in my life. It is an expression of joy, fear, hope, despondence, and many other human feelings, in musical form.

It also bears a personal message: The importance of expressing our stories and experiences to touch other lives, so that we can all feel connected in our shared humanity. I encourage you to also use your voice and express your story to the world!

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released July 7, 2016

Amy Hsieh: music composition, lyrics, guitar, vocals, piano, violin, engineering, editing.
Andrew Aversa: editing, mixing.
Jeremy Feder: additional engineering and mastering.
Mastered at Cue Recording Studios by Blaine Misner.

Photography by Jeremy Feder.
Album art by Aaron Wu.
Special thanks to Barry Felder.

This album is dedicated to my parents, who always loved and supported me. In many ways, they made this album possible.

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Diodes Fairfax, Virginia

I AM DIODES
Songwriter/singer/instrumentalist. I write because I feel, and maybe that makes you feel, too.

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Track Name: Headlines
When I saw your face up on every screen
Meeting you became my only dream
Spent two desperate years just to make it on the scene

All that time came down to that fateful day
I finally got you to look my way
Three blissful months living out my fantasy

It’s too good to be true
How did I end up with you?
But things can fall apart
And now I see
You’re gonna break my heart

Look at the magazine headlines
They all say the same damn thing, well
This is the first I’ve heard it
And I’m the last one you tell
Who is that girl in the red dress
Doesn’t she know that you’re mine?
This is the first I’ve heard it
And now you’re leaving me behind

Was it worth the time?
After all these years
I’ve got the fame and I have got the tears
And I’m standing alone at the top of the world

Everybody asks me how I feel
And which of the stories are real
And I honestly say that I don’t know what the deal is

I’m so in love with you
What am I supposed to do?
Oh, tell me it’s not true
The things they say about me and you

I read it all in the magazine headlines
That’s how I found out you don’t wanna be mine
Track Name: Little Rock Star
Little rock star
Could I fall asleep in your arms tonight?
You know I wouldn’t mind
Waking up next to you
No, I wouldn’t mind
No, I wouldn’t mind

And hey, rock star
Piece of heaven you are giving to me tonight
Just to hold your hand is heavenly enough all right
And I won’t ask for more
No, I don’t need more

Let’s just go and drive
Watch the miles pass us by
You make me feel alive
Just take the wheel do what you feel
‘Cause I’d go anywhere with you

Yeah, you’re my rock star
You don’t know the lengths I’d go to see you smile
Make a fool out of myself, act like a child
If it would make you laugh
I love to make you laugh

And pretty young thing
I think it’s awesome how you always feel so much
I remember feeling ways about a lot of stuff
When I was younger
I was a young girl

Let’s just go and drive
Watch the miles pass us by
You make me feel alive
So let me know where you wanna go
‘Cause I’d do anything for you

These dreamy nights with you
Blur in my memories
I'm sinking deep into
Your intoxicating melodies
Won’t you sing to me your sweet lullaby?

Little rock star
Did you ever know you light the world for me?
In any crowded room it’s only you I’d see
You are my rock star
You are my rock star

Let’s just go and drive
Watch the miles pass us by
You make me feel alive
Just take the wheel do what you feel
‘Cause you’re the only thing that’s real
I love the way you make me feel
And I’d go anywhere with you

I’d go anywhere with you
Little rock star, little rock star
Track Name: Schemas 1
Oh, when she was young
She didn’t have any armor
Oh, all she could do was run
When they would try to harm her

You built this wall so there’s no escape
You throw your grenade and then run away
Shut your eyes tight or you just might see
This weight you cast off is falling onto me

And I pay for these mistakes you’ve made with years
A stunted heartbeat shrouded inside fears
He has a mouth but has no ears

Oh, can we talk about it?
We never talk about it
Oh, these wounds don’t heal
We never talk about it
Track Name: Time Alone
You say you need time alone, time alone
But what you mean is
Time away from me
You say you need time alone, time alone
But what you mean is
Time away from me

I'm the kind who writes poetry and dreams about our future
You're the kind to run at the first sign of falling in love
I'm the kind who wants to go where you don't want me to follow
You're the kind who wants to be left alone

I still breathe you
I still feel you
I still need you
I still love you

You say you need time alone, time alone
But what you mean is
Time away from me
You say you need time alone, time alone
But what you mean is
Time away from me

And as I bleed
Your nerves shut down, you can't feel anything
And as you sleep
I lie wondering, what does it all mean?

And all of the things that you try to forget
Like how we stuck together the day we first met
Like the view of that mind-blowing LA sunset
These things I'll always remember

I still breathe you
I still feel you
I still need you
I still love you

Maybe I need time alone, time alone
Maybe I need time alone, time alone
Track Name: Lifetime With You
In the beginning
We don’t know what will be
Yes, I felt a spark
But was that just me?

And do I let my feelings show?
At first, it’s best to take it slow

Each glance is searching your eyes
And looking for some clue
Each time you make my heart stop
Do I make you feel that too?
I may not know you well, but
You’re always on my mind
If I asked you what you’re feeling
I wonder what I’d find

It takes time
But you show me the signs

Something started
And grew out of control
A restless fire
Burning in my soul
Now it’s all happening so fast
We linger on to make it last

Each time I look in your eyes
It says I want you more
Each kiss says this feels better
Than it’s ever been before
And when tomorrow comes, I
Don’t know where we will be
I only know right now
I want you to be here with me

Somewhere along the way
And I don’t know when it happened
But our lives are intertwined
By a stroke of luck somehow
In you I’ve found
More than I ever thought I’d find

Each look says I am certain
That you’re the one for me
Each kiss says I believe in us
For an eternity
And no matter where we’ve gone to
I know your heart beats true
I only want one thing
And that’s to spend my lifetime with you
Spend my lifetime with you
To spend my lifetime with you
Track Name: Schemas 2
And someday
I’ll find somebody
Who feels just like you
With that same ice-cold grip around my neck
We’ll build a fortress
And he’ll protect me
With chains and steel ‘til I’m a wreck
Oh, he loves me
With such passion
You can hear it in his voice as he shouts at me
Shout at me
Keep on shouting
As I drive this blade even further still
Your words can kill
Your words can kill
Your words can kill
Your words can kill
Track Name: Wonderful
4 AM in the dead of night
And the rain is coming down hard
But even by myself in the darkness
I know you’re never far

Any time that I need you
You always answer my call
You’re the one thing that makes sense to me
When everything goes out of control

And I could never thank you enough

Knowing you’re by my side
Keeps me going on
And I never knew
That I could be so strong
For the light in my life
I owe it all to you
You’re every kind of wonderful
That I ever knew
That I ever knew

After all that you’ve given me
How can I prove it to you?
There’s no limit to
What I’d go through
I’d do anything for you

And you know you can count on me
I’ll never let you down
And even if it’s been a while, don’t worry
I’ll always be around

And I know you don’t mind
But I could never thank you enough

And after all we've both been through
You know I understand you
And you've come to know just what I need

For my light, for my strength, for the air I breathe
For my hope, for my faith, all the proof I’ll ever need
Track Name: No Way For Us
Can I take back the things that I've said
Rewind the time and seal my lips instead
Oh, I...

I can fake another reason why
I wait for hours
Standing at your door
Something gained and something left behind
In wondering
Is there something more?

I've been trying hard to fight it but I'm caught
Between what I want and what I've got
And now it's just too late
There's no way out

I'm sorry that it all comes down to this
For the things that can never be that we'll both miss
Yeah

Every time we go and say goodbye
Then talk for hours
Standing at your door
I'm convinced I know the reason why
You linger there
It leaves me wanting more

I've been trying hard to fight it but I'm caught
Between what I want and what I've got
And now it's just too late
There's no way out
I've been fighting not to end up down this path
But I've gone too far and I can't go back, 'cause
To give it up is just too much and
There is just no way for us

I feel the pull that binds us
And I know you feel it too
So savor these few moments, don't blink your eyes
'Cause we don't have a future
Just I'm sorry
And goodbye
Track Name: Schemas 3 (Emissary)
These memories
Will never leave my veins
They’re here to
Remind me I’m a fighter
I am a survivor
And an emissary

If I can
Find a way to heal
And turn this hurting into beauty
Then I understand
It all was for a reason

It’s never perfect
But always worth it
Keep up the fight
‘Cause every scar
Gave you the power to
Shine your light
Into the night

So if you
Ever have your doubts
And lose your
Reason to hold on
Don’t forget there’s always more hope than we can see

And your story is beautiful,
Emissary
Track Name: Second Chances
Yeah I made another mess again
And I can’t seem to know who I am
Yeah I’m sorry for the drama
I’m just wired for trauma

Hey, how did you do it?
I don’t think you knew it
When you gave me just what I needed right now

You’re my one reason
To believe in second chances
Today’s gone tomorrow
But we all have second chances

You and I
Will turn these wrongs to right

Yeah I think I lost my way again
No I don’t seem to know where I am
But there’s a tiny light to follow
I’ll get it right tomorrow

Please, hold my hand tightly
I don’t take it lightly
When I say to you that I need you right now

Yeah I think we’re onto something here
We were almost too late
Some would call it a coincidence
But I say it’s fate

You and I
Will light the sky tonight